I’ve been broken many times. The pain runs deep.

Anxiety. Depression. PTSD. Procrastination. All real. All part of the journey.

Sometimes the healing took longer... but I always got back up, brushed myself off, and too often, fell into the same painful cycles again.

But a person can only take so much before they break.

On June 1, 2023, I went to work feeling “fine.” But out of nowhere, I was hit with a flood of emotion and had to leave. I haven’t been back since.

The past couple of years, I’ve been off work, trying to pick up the pieces. This time, it wasn’t just mental health, my body was crumbling, too. And insomnia became a new struggle.

I kept seeing a therapist. I had doctor appointments. An occupational therapist. Mental health clinics. But when I was home, I shut the world out.

I was empty inside and had no more love to give.

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When money started getting tight last year, I had to stop therapy.

That’s when YouTube became my lifeline.

I found sleep hypnosis for anxiety, depression, PTSD, procrastination, and insomnia, and kept up my visits to the mental health clinic.

Then... September 28, 2024, my first fender bender.
No car.
But strangely... this was a Blessing.
Now even more isolated, my little home became my sanctuary.
My mood was low. My direction unclear.
Even though I was home every day, keeping up was still a challenge.
And eventually, I stopped going to the mental health clinic too.

In December, I discovered something new: “New Chapter, New Life” on YouTube.
I listened every night. Still do. And I started to feel better.
Shoveling snow became my joy. Magical even. We had an awesome snowfall this year ❣️🥰

March 18 came and because I was feeling good. Not great but good enough to find the courage to reach out to someone dear to me, hoping to start the process of healing old wounds.
But again... the door was slammed shut.
And that deep hurt resurfaced.

I cried.

But then... I stopped.

I said: NO MORE.
I simply cannot let the person have the power over my life any longer.

And for the first time in my life,
I Choose to put My Needs First.
I Choose ME
I Choose to TAKE BACK MY POWER ❣️❣️
I Choose My Happiness

Please don’t feel sorry for me. That’s not why I’m sharing this.

I am truly grateful to every person who tested me, hurt me, built me... because they all led me to this moment.

So many good things have started happening. I look forward to what life has to offer NOW and in the FUTURE ❣️🥰

Call me crazy, but I find answers all around me now.
Every question I ask is answered.
Signs are everywhere, if you open your heart to see and receive them.

But remember…

ONLY YOU CAN CHOOSE TO SHINE AGAIN ❣️❣️🥰

If you’re struggling, if you feel alone—I hope this brings you comfort.
There are brighter days ahead.

I hope my journey inspires YOU to heal.
Because when YOU CHOOSE YOU, everything begins to change.

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. ❣️🥰🙏❤️✨

With love,
Theresa Chuchmach
🕓 May 27, 2025 at 4:11pm
(In memory of my Bfriend’s birthday in Heaven) ❣️🥰💕🙏❤️✨