This is when My Journey Truly Began.
I know a lot of you out there have suffered for many years just like me and in different ways too.
I hope this Helps You All to Heal and Move Forward to a better Life for You Now ❣️
In my experiences there has been an over abundance of mistreatment from Men, Friends, Co - workers, Family and Even My Own Daughter.
In the past 15yrs. I have had break downs that have caused me to leave work and pill pop to suppress and cope with the Depression and Anxiety.
In your head 24/7……
the despair, deep hurt, confusion, the voices, exhaustion, lack of motivation, procrastination, the sadness, the tears and the lack of Love itself from your whole being.
You feel dead inside……
When I started to feel better, enough to go back to work it was OK for a bit but then it would all start happening again.
Same patterns, different people, same Bullshit thrown in my face.
This time 2023….…. It was worse!
I've told you about the therapy, meds, diagnosis, ear ringing, headaches, symptoms, on-going appointments and so on.
I was a basement dweller and slowly decaying from the inside out.
There was no one that could understand what I was going through and honestly it seemed no one really cared to understand.
If they did they would have checked in to see.
On the other hand… I know everyone has their own problems too.
Or….
They just don't Understand how
So the basement dweller I was and barely stepped out of the house unless totally necessary.
You know that saying???
Everything happens for a reason….
I Truly Believe this.
The first Breakdown I had in 2013 from some of the same shit plus 11 deaths in one year and hardly any sleep was the Beginning of what I know and understand Now.
If you have the chance, you should read
‘ The Power of Now ‘ by Eckhart Tolle
It took a bit for me to get through and understand but it made sense to me.
The other thing that helped me was the person I was with back then…. Brian.
He was always there for me and cared. He made sure to get me out and have fun together. He also had a Harley and we went on trips. That was the best thing ever! Out on the open road and air. I felt safe for the first time in a long time. He was a big part of me getting better and healing until things fell apart.
But….. that was where I needed to be until I grew out of that space.
We did hang out once in a while after that and then a stop to it all.
When this all happened again…. I myself didn't understand. The treatment, the patterns.
WHY????
In 2024……
I knew I wanted more!
I didn't want to be in this state any longer!
So I started the Sleep Hypnosis I found on YouTube.
Depression, Anxiety, Stress, PTSD, Procrastination, Pain, Confidence.
NEW YEAR, NEW LIFE and more.
In 2025…..
I weaned myself off of my medications slowly.
( Please don't do this just because I did! Please ask for Medical assistance! )
Feeling better…….
I reached out to that person near and dear to my heart I have mentioned. That person is my daughter.
Reaching out in hopes of starting to heal our relationship.
Wel…….l it didn't go so well.
I was outside and started to cry again.
At that moment I stopped. I made the decision that I wasn't going to let her or anyone else for that matter make me feel this way anymore or have the power over my life any longer.
I Chose Myself in that Moment!
I looked up to the sky and said….
I SURRENDER!
I FORGIVE EVERYONE THAT HAS WRONGED ME!
PLEASE HELP ME NOW!!
This is when My Journey Truly Began.
This is when I started to move forward.
This is when I truly started to heal.
This is when I started to Smile Again.
This is when I started to Love Again.
This is when I knew I was Worthy of More.
This is when things started to change for me now.
Choose to do it for You!
To be able to move forward to Bigger and Better things, Heal Your Heart and live the Life that is Meant for You!
You are Worth it!
You Deserve this!
I Wish You All Wonderfilled Moments Each and Every Day Now and Always❣️🥰
Theresa xo
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